haunt you every day.
“ohhh, so alone in love, so alone in love. i’m going to haunt you every day, haunt you every day.”
i just finished watching that rerun of grey’s anatomy… it’s been so long since i posted that i actually had to read my own blog to see what part of my world i had stored on the internet last. everything i said was true though; the last month of my life has been consumed with work, school, and a dollop of insanity. i passed all my classes and survived what felt like a marathon of work (shoppers are crazy!) so now i’m sitting in my pajamas sipping wine out of a christmas mug and watching cats on youtube. this weekend has been one of the best weekends off i think i have had in a long time though. saturday started off with a long early shift (8:30 - 5) but i got some shopping done in the midst of it. besides, there are only a few people outside of my coworkers that i would even attempt to socialize with that early in the morning, so with that and a frappucino, i made it through the day.
my mom used to be in the restaurant business a decade or two ago with a group of friends, and they ripped a $100 bill into pieces with the promise of seeing where everyone’s lives had taken them in ten years… one of them is my aunt’s ex-husband and a family friend, so through him, everyone kept in touch, and they throw a yearly christmas party where all of the chefs bring a dish to the potluck. it’s pretty much the most awesome dinner party ever (delicious!) so i go every year. last year i just went with my parents, but i decided to bring my fabulous boyfriend this time, and have a partner in crime to go dessert-and-champagne-snatching with. it was so much more amazing than i even thought it would be… all of these people are ridiculously rich now because they own whole restaurant chains now, and being dressed all fancy in a fancy house with a plastic of champagne and a hand to hold… it’s one time of year where i feel like royalty in the middle of a bunch of people. i’m sure the alcohol had something to do with it, but it felt like everyone was watching us and i felt so free twirling in my skirt, with my socks against the hardwood floor under all the christmas lights… i think everyone should feel that happy and beautiful at least once in their life. my skirt and my bomber jacket still smell slightly of champagne from the time or two that i accidentally spilled some from my glass. it was amazing. i want to feel like that all the time. i resolve to do things that make me feel that amazing as often as possible.
sunday was a different story though. after a night of merriment, anthony and i went back to his home and slept. he woke up about three hours before me, since i didn’t open my eyes until the crack of noon, and i only spent two or three hours actually walking around. most of the day was spent sleeping, laying in bed and talking, laying in bed and watching television, or laying in couch and playing lego videogames, because he knows i love them. his roommate wes came home and his girlfriend brandy (i think it’s brandi, but i’m not sure and i like brandy better, so i’m using it) came from dallas to visit, so we hung out and played rock band and watched family guy after the others arrived. i’ve gotten anthony hooked on the show ‘dirty, sexy, money’ so we progressed an episode or two through the first season as well before falling asleep.
i woke up again today at noon. i’m not sure what my deal is with needing lots of sleep these past two days, or maybe it’s just that i missed so much during the past two weeks that my body is trying its hardest to recuperate. it was another morning spent in bed because anthony had to work at two, so we laid in bed until he had to get ready, and then i came home and caught up on tivo. i think i’m going to be vegetarian for a week… no meats or fast food or anything. i really need to give my body a break from this on-the-go diet i have been sticking to lately. i feel like my organs need to be scrubbed out, and it’s yucky. after i finish this blog, i will be completely caught up with my correspondence or whatever. i was looking forward to seeing the meteor shower tonight, but texas is covered in clouds so i will probably continue to drink wine and indulge my tivo addiction until anthony gets off work and comes to see me :) i might even bake him cookies, we shall see. and then tomorrow i start christmas shopping! this is the FUN part of the holiday :) that, and the ham. how many people do you have to shop for? are you going out of town? i think about the gifts i got when i was a child, and it makes me wonder what will be considered retro cool when the children i know now are older…
